Balance is such an important thing … In all areas of our life….
When you make a change the cosmic see saw tilts and you start sliding down then scrambling back up to get balance back again. I just read a book by a very brave women called “Two Years to Normal” by Karen Leibovitch and you could say that “normal” and “balance” are a very similar thing when you have a great change in your life it does take time to get back to what is considered your “normal” and a life in “balance”.
I recommend this book to everyone and it has helped me centre my journey and focus on the tasks at hand.
I am a first and foremost a mother and wife have been married nearly seven years and my first born will be six in february 2011. When I look back on the changes that have happened since the balance of single life changed to married life then life with two beautiful children I am amazed at how far I have come from ten years ago when I was crying in my two litre tub of icecream over being left on the shelf and never going to have the full balanced life.
My life has changed again when I discovered the passion of photography and the notion that I could actually make a living out of this. It has been a rough ride with choices and even the hand of nature giving me a nudge with its beautiful sunrises as well as its cruel cold weather to keep me sick with colds so much so that staying at my video store work seemed impossible and really not worth the drain on my body and time away from my passion.
The balance of the mind has not really succeeded after leaving my job I have let the stress of money overshadow the joy and healing of nature. I crumbled and let everything invade at once which also let nature share its wonders of sickness on me. Being laid up and lying in bed with a body that ached and would not move without pain gave the mind plenty of time to process and try to rebalance.
Trying to juggle being a mum and wife along with being a work at home mum have been challenging and I am no where near close to finding that perfect balance but I believe that I am on my way. Just to acknowledge there is such a thing as balance between them all is a start.
It is hard to make time for it all and when you do make more time on one than the other you can feel guilty I still can not go a full day out taking photos for the simple fact that I don’t think I should be able to without having everything else done in the other departments. A mothers work is NEVER done though so I need to give myself a break and give that time to take those photos the shots that need you to stay still in the bushes to get the beautiful birds or the right time of day for the right lighting on the newly emerging spring flowers. The days of rush here snap a shot and rush off again are still here but hopefully can be balanced with a few days of total bliss chasing the ultimate dream of nature photography.
The birds in the above shot come every winter to the paddocks in great flocks but although they will be driven past without being disturbed the moment you slow down or stop they are on their way up into the sky flying away from the limited zoom of my camera. I try EVERY day to get the perfect shot of these birds and one day that day will come when everything is in balance.. time… placement .. maybe even a money for that zoom lens.
I have faith in my journey